A Mother's Day treat

It's a good thing having a blog afterall - to get the message across to hubby! ;)

He read my wish and he has just left the house with the girl to her music class and thereafter, he's bringing her out to wherever! Muahahahaha!

He also wanted to make a bet with me yesterday saying for sure I will be at the pc the whole time - I told him of course I will as I've got so many things to update. But on second thoughts, I also want to watch tv since I don't have the girl to fight with now. I still got some laundry to do and some packing (we will be off to PD next week and Kuantan - a break I want so badly and I feel the girl also deserve a beach holiday again) but I will manage these chores in between.

Thank you hubby for being such a sport!

And to the rest of you moms out there, here's wishing you a happy Mother's Day!

4th checkup, start of 2nd trimester, honeymoon period?

Today was my checkup again and I'm not sure why I ended up without a picture of Baby 2 as well as some of my questions unanswered. Probably due the fact that I was kind of preoccupied with the blood test that I had to do after seeing by Obgyn.

I don't have Baby 2's measurements but he/she is growing well from what we saw on the screen. My Obgyn said that it is still to early to tell the gender so we shall see for next month's checkup which is 5 weeks away (4 week's time is a public holiday).

The blood test was painful (and my arm still kinda hurt) and I just pray that I won't be hearing from my Obgyn about the results until I see him again in 5 weeks time. And the blood test costs a lot, the highest bill so far from all the checkups I had.

As for how I am personally progressing with the pregnancy so far, the nausea is mostly gone and so is the vomiting, well nearly. I've puked 3 times this week and the recent was just before I saw my Obgyn this morning in the car. It is also my first time puking outside of a toilet bowl. It was provoked by a cough (we, the girl, hubby and I are all down with the flu) and I luckily I managed to get hold of a plastic bag.

At least I can eat better than before although I still dislike some food. And yes the weird after taste is still there after I eat food (some say I'm expecting a boy because of this). And I think my nose is changing its original shape too! :( ....a few days ago, I noticed it but of course I would be in denial. But the next day, my colleague asked me about it and I totally freaked out! My nose kinda got bigger towards the very end with Rye Li and now to have my nose changing at 14 weeks and I still got like 6 months or so to go, it is very scary-la! I just pray it has got to do with my runny nose and that I'm blewing my runny nose now and then. Hehe, we shall see (keeping fingers crossed!).

We should be getting our maid next month and I pray it's a smooth one. We settled for an Indonesian in the end as the agent was telling us we need to be extra patient with the communication part if we were to get a Cambodian one. I kinda figured that already I'm running out of patience with a 2 year old, I can't imagine another round with a foreign maid! Not that I will have it easy with the Indon but at least I don't have to start from scratch.

This week, when hubby was away for his business travels and the girl was not well (she was having fever for 6 nights and her cough is really bad), I really felt the huge pinch being alone with her. I have been mostly alone with her at nights since she turned one month old and I have managed to cope well from then till now.

Rye Li was a colicky baby at 6 weeks onwards till 3-4 months old and I was mostly alone with her. She was also sick now and then and I was mostly alone with her. All of these lonely times, I could cope and I am surprise at myself that I could cope although I did complain to hubby occasionally that we need a maid. When she turned 1 year old onwards, the thought of getting a maid just kind of disappear as she was easier to handle.

Now, with this pregnancy, it has been a test for me. Rye Li was having fever since the previous Thursday night. We were mostly awake throughout the nights as she was coughing badly and that we need to observe her fever. On Monday night when hubby was away, she woked up and coughed really badly and vomited out her milk. She soiled her bed but luckily the bulk of her puke ended up in a plastic bowl which we have prepared for this. I moved her to the other mattress wanting to change the whole bedsheet but I couldn't find her bedsheet. In the end (I was also dead tired), I just took a nappy cloth to cover the small wet patch which was towards the end of the bed and moved her back to her bed. The previous times when she actually puked everything on the bed, hubby was around to clean up the mess while I cleaned her up.

This week really made me wish my maid is already here. I know for a fact that I will need a maid when Baby 2 comes to assist in the house chores and at nights when I need to have my shower. She is not to look after the kids as I will be sending her and the kids to the daycare during the weekdays. I could cope with looking after Rye Li myself at nights and I know I can cope with Baby 2 too. Only thing I need to get rid off is the housechores, cleaning & sterilising bottles, laundry, packing for the daycare the next day so that I can pay attention to Rye Li as well. I cannot rely on Rye Li to look after Baby 2 when I shower so this is where I will depend on the maid. I need my shower so I can breastfeed (I cannot imagine breastfeeding after a day out at work) and Rye Li pratically watched me shower when I was all alone with her.

Having a maid and sending the kids to the daycare will be a huge additional expenses for us. But my consolation is that this is only temporary. The most, 2-3 years. If my maid proves that she is trustworthy and would want to stay on to work, I may just stopped sending the kids to the daycare as Rye Li would be in school by then and Baby 2 would have learnt alot from the daycare already by then too. If the maid doesn't want to stay on, then I would not get one anymore as Baby 2 would be easier to handle. The things we do for our kids eh?! ;)

The 50 questions tag

I have to do this tag, simply coz I owe KittyCat too many already and I don't think I will be doing the rest (it took me a while to search this one leh and this was the latest tag you had for me - think next time, you need to email me the link!)

Ok, she wants to know 50 things about me as follows (I promise I will try my best to answer them honestly!):-

1. Last person you had a deep and meaningful conversation with?
I'm not sure - at this crazy hormonal stage I'm going through right now, there's alot of people I've been talking to and mostly about life! ;)

2. Where was the last place you went?
Sad to say it was at the office - work-la, what else can I be doing man! :(

3. If you could be with your first love, would you?
Nope as that would mean I won't have Rye Li right now and of course hubby.

5. Who was your first crush???? Same as above.
Seriously?! Michael J. Fox - I dreamt I kissed him! LOL!

6. What was the last thing you highlighted?
Er, at work, alot of stuff. At home, also alot of stuff relating to the girl and my pregnancy.

7. Who is the last baby that you held?
If Baby 2 in me don't count, then Rye Li. Okay, she's not a baby anymore. Then it has got to be Justin, my friend's baby whom I got to carry after Rye Li allowed me too in February! I was so happy coz she let me (she has been very protective over me all this while!)

8. Do you know of any twins with rhyming names?
Nope.

9. Are you ticklish?
Of course!

10. Have you ever worn a crown?
I've to agree with KittyCat here, it was also during my wedding studio pics. Yucks and I hate that pictures.

11. Last time you saw fireworks?
I think it was during Chinese New Year this year too.

12. Who is the last person you hugged?
Rye Li - she's the fortunate one that gets loads of hugs from me.

13. Do you have a black dog?
Used to when I was in secondary school - it was a chow-chow and Fifi was her name, she was the best dog I ever had!

14. Do you have a little black dress?
I think so somewhere in my wardrobe - haven't been in one for ages!

15. What are you wearing right now?
My work shirt and shorts - yea, I need to shower really soon!

16. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Yucks - a client coz there was a last minute request as usual and it was nearly 8pm.

17. Do you like coffee?
Nope but I don't mind the occasional mocha blend or when I'm really sleepy and need to be awake for work.

18. Are you missing someone?
Nope but I'm missing my sleep if this counts.

19. Reason behind why you last cried?
The stress at work coz it's getting to me during this crazy hormonal changes in my body and the demands from clients are getting crazier!

20. How much cash do you have on you?
Think it's about RM200.

25. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
With digital camera, who needs films anymore?!

26. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a regret?
Definitely a million bucks!

27. What’s on your mind right now?
Sleep, work, the girl's health (she's been having fever since Thursday night and has the flu!), my pregnancy, my life when Baby 2 comes.

28. Do you have a deep dark secret?
What?! Like murder or a crime or perhaps a secret affair? Nah!

29. Do you wish you were with someone right now?
Yea, hubby so that he can help me out with the girl too. He's travelling again for work.

30. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?
None. Not fortunate enough like KittyCat.

31. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
For the life of me, I cannot remember. This was ages ago and I guess it wasn't a big enough punishment for me to remember! ;)

32. What was your childhood nickname?
sini-sana

33. Do you have any strange phobias?
Same as KittyCat too and I just posted it - having to have my kids go before me. And yea, the usual ghosts, death and roaches!

34. Have you ever played naked twister?
Nope! I have a boring life!

36. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
Ghosts.

38. Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
Oh yes but it's not nice to say these things right?! I believe in Karma so let them remain in my thoughts. hehe.

39. Do you crack your knuckles?
Some times but not as frequent as I used to when I was younger and single - guess I got too much to do being a mom now.

40. What’s one thing that can always be found in your refrigerator?
Junk food.

41. What color are your bed sheets?
Blue and Yellow

42. How many kids do you plan on having?
I want two but hubby wants 3 - If Baby 2 is a boy, I will go for another one coz I want another girl. And if it comes out a boy, I may just go for no. 4. Ask me this again when Baby 2 comes out! ;)

43. What did you do today?
Work, work and work.

44. How would you like to die?
Same as KittyCat - In my old age, and content to go, and in my sleep.

45. Have you ever been in love?
Also same as KittyCat. Why do we get married?! and falling in love in a different way when the kids come.

46. When is the last time you went out of the state (province)?
In February for the Bangkok trip.

49. Do you judge people?
I try not to. ;)

50. Generally, in life, what makes you happy?
As of right now, to see my family living happily and healthily. And also for me to live a stress-free life. Too much to ask for eh?!

Thanks KittyCat for this tag and sorry that it took so long!

Weird dreams

I have been getting some weird dreams for this pregnancy. Funny though that I do not remember whether I had any during my 1st pregnancy.

Since over a month back, my dreams are just plain weird and Baby Centre did warn that I would be facing this especially during the first trimester and the third trimester. The dreams never made an impact on me although I do question them at times.

I had a nightmare over a week ago and this one I need to pen down as this is by far the worst dream I ever had in my life. I have dreamt of ghost haunting me and deaths in my life and although these had also disturbed me then, this particular one is still very disturbing to me till today.

Every parents' nightmare is to see their young ones go before them. And this is what I dreamt that night.

The girl and I with family and friends were at this huge water themepark. Her papa wasn't with us (and I think it's because he was also away on a business trip then when I had the nightmare). The girl being so independent, refused to hang out with me and wanted to hang out with the older kids playing around the water themepark and I allowed her to.

The last I saw her alive was when she followed the group into this huge pool that had those artificial huge waves. Somehow, at that time I knew she's too small for that but I didn't stop her. I'm not sure why I didn't in the dream and just let her have her fun and went about doing my own things.

After a while, I sense something wrong and went to search for her. As I mentioned, the themepark was so huge and I was going around asking people whether they saw the girl and none of them did. I begin to panick and was running around till I was looking at that huge pool whereby there were a small crowd. I noticed a body was being carried out from the pool to a room and I started running towards them. I came across a staff that works there and I asked what happened and he said it was a 10 year old boy and at that time, it was a relief to me. But then, another staff came and said it was Rye Li.

I immediately ran into the room and there she was, lying motionless on a table that looked like those at the mortuary rooms. I screamed her name and told her it was mummy. And I kept asking her to "Please wake up girl, please, it's mummy, please wake up!". While I was screaming and crying all this, I also felt a total sense of guilt as to what am I going to tell her papa at that time. And then I got up.

It took me several seconds to realize it was all a dream and when I came to my senses, I had to quickly checked on the girl, who was sleeping next to me. It was such a relief then to know that it was only a dream but still, it was so real that I was thinking about the dream the whole day. When I dropped the girl off at the daycare, I immediately called her papa to tell him about the nightmare. He said that it has got to do with my hormones and that perhaps I also have the fear with Baby 2 coming along, how will I handle two kids then. Anyhow, I told him that we have to take extra precaution when she is near water from now on.

To sleep in and do nothing on Mother's Day

I've been asked by Belle's & Cassie's mummy on what I want to do this coming Mother's Day. Well, it has been known fact that I have not been getting enough sleep lately (due to my pregnancy) and also lately, the girl is not feeling well and have been getting up alot through the nights.

Thus, all I want is to sleep in and do nothing but relax. And by this, I mean no one at home but me alone! Yes, if hubby is reading this, you are most welcome to bring the girl out the whole day! :D

Somehow, I got this feeling I won't be getting this and I'd probably wish the same thing next Mother's Day again!

Here's the list to what other blogging Mommies want this Mother's Day:

1. Mumsgather shares - What I REALLY want to do on Mother’s Day.
2. Vien likes - Not to lift a finger on Mother’s Day.
3. Syn wants - to sleep in an do nothing no Mother's Day.

I'd like to know what KittyCat wants to do this Mother's Day.